This book is non-fiction. The following are the diaries I kept during my junior and senior years in high school in 2001. They chronicle my descent into drugs, my codependent relationships, and my dogmatic belief in religion. In these diaries, sickness is prevalent from the start. In the end, I made it through okay. I didn’t die like in other diaries similar to mine. But it took a long time to get over these times, and looking back, I am grateful to be in a better place, and clean for many years. In many of these diary books, there are fictional elements added so that the book flows better, or has a plot. That hasn’t been done here. What you see is the entire diary, and every entry I wrote, exactly as it was written. Because of that, sometimes there are spelling errors and other strange things that I might not be able to explain anymore. And some entries go on and on as I was high on speed at the time of their writing. That is why I gave each entry a table of contents link. If you ever want to skip ahead, hit the table of contents button.