Once the author sobered up, Head finds him struggling to maintain daily life. Early sobriety found David becoming more aware everyday of what drove and fed his illness and what his illness really means. He finds his life, or what he thought his life was, unraveling at a rapid pace.
Desperate to get better, he fights the urge to use or drink by what he describes as, “An unseen force I had never known removed my obsession to drink or use drugs. It was and still remains that force which keeps me sober…I have come to understand that force, as God.”